I let that sucker overflow…

What do you do if you are just having one of those days, weeks, months, or even years, where you just can’t deal? I guess you sulk, whine, and sit in it. All of the things that you think are horrible and are only effecting you seem to engulf your entire world and now you have a permanent scowl on your face.

Well, this was me, over the last couple of days.

I guess I didn’t learn enough from my last post and seemed to waste energy on things that were beyond my control. It really did bother me that I couldn’t control all of these tiny things that were happening around me. Partly, because they didn’t feel tiny at the moment. They felt huge, life altering, and felt like they were coming at me 100 miles an hour.

I let myself get caught up in the snowball as it came spiraling towards me. I let work take a toll, which isn’t normal for me. I let my brain tell my body that I couldn’t do things at the gym. I let my stinky dogs (yep, they got skunked) stress me out SO MUCH that I couldn’t deal with anything else. I wanted to just stop. Take a break from everything. You know, run away from my problems.

I didn’t listen to Matt. I didn’t listen to Carlos. I didn’t listen to anyone. I sat in it. I did not empty my bucket. I let that sucker overflow with negativity. I didn’t even realize that I was drowning in it.

But it’s over. I’m slowing taking a step back and realizing that it’s all wasted energy. All of it. I got nothing out of being a grump. I didn’t feel good. I wasn’t a nice person, to anyone. And nothing positive came out of this situation.