How did you feel this time, last year…?

This week has been pretty good. I went to the gym 4 days in a row and my food choices weren’t completely out of control. They could be better so that will be my goal. I recently turned 36 and had a wonderful time for my birthday. I finally have seen a change somewhat in my appearance. I still have a long way to go but it’s nice to notice the change.

So I had a conversation today with Carlos and had some enlightening thoughts. I realized that I’ve almost lost 100 pounds. This is crazy to me. So, he asked me about how I felt this time, last year.  Hmmm..? So we had a convo about it but when I got home I had to really think about it some more.

This is an easy and hard question to answer. A year ago, I was feeling tired. I was feeling physically tired but not due to physical exertion. I know that sounds impossible or at least not probable, but it’s how I felt. I seemed to always find a way to not move. It was easy to just be lazy (even though that took work). Ugh. So hard to explain. It was mentally draining to always figure out a way to be lazy. It was easy to just blame everything on my lack of focus and drive. I wasn’t wanting to change, this time last year. I was content with being stagnant. I didn’t mind the feeling of tiredness, ineffectiveness, or laziness because I didn’t know any other way to be. (sad, but true) It didn’t take much to keep me UN-motivated. I didn’t try at all. Then as I stayed stagnant, I realized that I wanted to be able to enjoy my life without any limitations. Now, I didn’t all of a sudden decide this…this was after I started after the gym. I only went because I had expressed interest to Melissa about it. She then reminded me but I never took her up on her offer. Then one day, as I’m passing Glory’s office, she asked me about joining. I didn’t have an excuse so I promised her I would go that week. I figured I would check it out. I didn’t have high expectations and I didn’t think I would like it. But I made a promise. It started out really rough. It was so difficult. I did a lot of walking and only stayed about 30 minutes. It’s amazing how much a person can change in just a few months.

Throughout this journey, I finally realized that I was FINALLY tired of being tired. I needed to do something. FAST.