So, I’m not sure if I’m back or not. Kind of just wanted to get on here and write a bit. I’ve been doing okay but life has been hard. After losing Matt, time kind of sped up and stood still for the last 7 months. I miss him a lot.
It’s weird because before he passed away, I was on a streak of trying to get myself back into the doctor to try and see what was going on. There wasn’t anything alarming or anything, other than my weight, but I just sort of needed that piece of mind that said that I’ve at least had a check up and if anything was wrong, I could try to fix it.
Right before he died, I had gone in for my woman’s wellness and mammogram. Those all came out good but then I stopped because everything was just crashing all around me. Mom was sick, Matt was gone, and I really didn’t know what to do. It was so hard. I felt like every time I turned around, I was getting punched.
But those are all things that have happened. Things that I can’t control but I could control at least going back to the doctor so I did. I knew Matt would have wanted me to finish my check-ups. During the time before Matt had died, I wasn’t taking care of myself. I was stressed and was eating anything and everything. When I went in for that first blood work, my numbers were terrible but I’ve been working on it, seriously, since about late October. I’ve had two other blood draws since and my numbers have gone back down to a normal place where they should be.
I haven’t really been working out. I think that being on leave from work sort of threw me off and I just made excuses. So far, at least the scale has gone down about 45 lbs since late October ‘23. Right now, that’s makes me feel good. Now, to get back into the gym.
Stay Patient & Trust Your Journey 