Oh, gosh. It’s been such a long time since I’ve written. The last time, I was really excited because I had made a decision to keep writing, no matter what. Well, that didn’t really work for me but I don’t feel like it was because I dropped the ball, but more like the world was going through some stuff. It wasn’t really about me. Everything, pretty much, got put on the back burner because of this terrible virus that everyone is dealing with now. Honestly, I don’t think I was really thinking about ‘my health/fitness journey’ at the time because it just wasn’t something you were making time for.
Which probably needs to change. Maybe I do need to write about how this is effecting me? Maybe I need to decide how I’m going to let this effect me. I had already sort of told myself that all of the health/wellness stuff could wait because it seemed selfish to think of only myself during this time. It really took a couple of conversations with Carlos to understand that maybe it was okay to feel that way. Knowing and being aware of what I could control during this time would help me through this. I guess I hadn’t really thought of it like that because of the severity.
Seeing the world change in such a short amount of time can scare you. To me, change is always hard but adapting to change is harder. I guess, what I’m trying to say is, that when the world changed, I stood still. I let everything just engulf me. I didn’t fight to really keep any of my lifestyle because it was easy to just give in to my surroundings. Please know that when I say ‘give in’, I do not mean adapt. Those are two different things. One you embrace and the other you just ignore and let it change you.
Giving in is easy. You make the decision and Boom! It’s done. Adapting requires effort, time, energy, physical and mental prowess. Giving in makes you feel sad and weak. Adapting or embracing the change makes you feel strong and in control. I missed this feeling. With this blog, I’ve always talked about how the gym and the people there changed my life, well, it’s kind of like that. I’ve spent many years, avoiding things like exercise and it made me feel weak and sad. When I walk into the gym, I feel strong and in control. Lately, I have feeling like I took several steps backward and had never even stepped foot into the Plyofit walls before because I had lost my way. I had let this new life, that everyone has been having to live through, get to me. I guess, for good reason. Who would have thought that this would ever be going on?
Which leaves us with answering the question of, What Now?
Well, I’ve determined two ways that I could react, giving in or adapting. Which is going to make me not go crazy? Which is going to make me feel good when things aren’t always so good? Which will make me be able to have some normalcy in my life so that I’m not sad or angry? Honestly, as much as I’d like to say that I have the answer, no one really knows, but what I can say is that I have a feeling like I need to keep what I can control, in my control, and not let it get away from.
So what can I keep control of? A lot of things. Actually, a lot of things that go along with this blog and what encompasses my ‘journey’. Mental health/clarity, physical exercise, stress levels (for the most part), and emotions.
So, why the sudden post? Over the last couple of weeks, talking with Carlos, I’ve really realized that keeping some of these good habits that I have started over the last couple of years has/will help tremendously. Everyone wants to get back to normal, but we aren’t quite sure what that will even look like when we are passed this so I think it’s important to make sure that we don’t change what we know has helped in the past. Keep positive and keep moving, it may be as simple as that, to get through this for me, at least in the capacity of this journey.
Stay Patient & Trust Your Journey 