A few days ago I wrote about taking a look back at where I was a year ago before deciding where to go on this journey from this point on. This was so helpful and I realize that sometimes I’m all micro when I should be macro.
I’m going to be honest. I’ve gained some weight…10lbs to be exact. I didn’t want to admit it so I didn’t weigh myself but I could feel it creepin’ in on my belly. I got on the scale after boycotting it for awhile and I knew it before I saw the number. I’d be lying if I didn’t say it broke my heart a little. I let it get the best of me which, honestly, I’m okay with. I just wasn’t okay with the lying to myself. And when I say I’m okay with it, I don’t mean I’m okay with the weight gain but more about the accountability. It’s funny because there are so many things I can say, so many excuses that I can create, but in the end I know what I need to do. It’s just a matter of execution.
Also, Carlos mentioned something today that I realize could definitely be used to process this whole situation better. We talked about how much my feet had been hurting, and he, always being the glass half full guy, said that he’s glad that something like this happened. It’s good to face adversity. So, I’m going to take that same outlook and apply it to my 10 pounds.
But let’s go back to what I said about being okay with it. Of course, I’m not ecstatic about it nor am I content with it but I am happy that I acknowledged it. I laugh because the only way that I feel I can truly acknowledge it, is by talking about it. I knew I had to tell Carlos because he’d be a thousand times more level headed about it than me. If I told him then I couldn’t lie about it to myself anymore. I’d be forced to face it head on. Face adversity.
So I’m going to take this micro setback, remember where I was when I started, and get back on my journey. 💪🏼