This journey has been difficult. Not because it’s difficult to do but because in order to make all of the changes that I have made and all the ones that I am still in the process of making I have to think differently than I have.
The emotions. The processing. The time. The inability to foresee anything ahead. The lack of control that I sometimes have. These are all things that make the journey hard but so worth it. I could go on and on but I feel like I’m passed that only because I’ve let these ‘harder’ parts of my journey become something that I use to my advantage when I run into an obstacle. The person I am is way different than the person I used to be but that isn’t necessarily bad. I think I’m better for it and that was something I struggled with for a long time. I kept thinking change was bad but really it wasn’t change, it was growth.
For me, my growth, has been such a mental change that it caused a lot of chaos internally because I didn’t know it was happening at the time. If someone would have said to me in the beginning, not only is your body going to change but so is your thought process with EVERYTHING you do, I wouldn’t have understood. You have to live it to truly understand. With growth, comes a truly wonderful, internal battle of how you thought vs. how you think now.
As a side note, I feel before any progress I made wasn’t as meaningful as it’s been lately. Lately, I’ve seen internal growth in myself more and more each day so now I’m not as blind to physical changes. With that, here is the very first picture I took at Plyofit vs. a photo we took this week. A span of 1 year and 7 months.