About three weeks ago, I had a realization about this health journey I’m pursuing. It wasn’t looking good. I was trying my hardest to tell myself that I was going to get out of this slump, but I just couldn’t kick it. Not permanently. If you look back, you’ll see that my posts have been roller coasters with themes of positive then negative vibes. I realized that I wasn’t doing anything to help myself, so I changed. My outlook was brighter as I realized that no one was going to fix this for me.
So, three week update. I’m still back. I’ve kept it up, but it’s different this time. I’ve made so many choices over the last three weeks that have helped keep my food on track and have only slightly indulged when I felt I needed to. But the indulgence was always small. In the two weeks that I since I started Journey 2.0, I have lost 13.6 lbs. My goal is to weigh in weekly because I know I should see some change each week, if I keep up what I’m doing.
Another thing I wanted to mention, not sure how relevant this is to this blog, but I realized that this isn’t as difficult as it was in the beginning. (more on the later) I know that sounds ridiculous because I say it’s difficult all the time to everyone. But I realize that I say this because that is what I’m supposed to say. It’s supposed to be difficult. Now, I’m not saying that I’m going to have a drop in weight every week or that I’m not going to indulge in things I shouldn’t have or that I’m even going to make it to the gym every day, but I know that I can do this…with ease, usually. I’m not afraid to fail anymore. You make the decision every time something comes in front of you, whether it be food, exercise, sleep, etc. and that’s what you pick. That is the choice you have made for that particular time, whether it be good for you or bad for you. I used to think that making a choice, a bad choice, would set you up for failure for the entire day/week/month, but that was me making an excuse. That was me telling myself that it was okay to mess up the day because you already messed up your morning. This was me making excuses. I’m done with excuses.
Hopefully this mindset will continue because I can’t wait for week 4.